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Sunday, August 30, 2015

A Difficult Day For Me


Today is a very emotional day for me.  I'll keep it short and sweet.

Today - August 31st - at 2:00 pm I will celebrate my 47th wedding anniversary but doing it without my precious John.

It has been such a fast 47 years, however, the last ten months have been extremely slow and difficult without him.

But, I do look back and love all of the precious times we had together during all those years.


I have so much to be thankful for.

On our 40th wedding anniversary, we lost our darling Landen to the horrible disease of cancer.  


So, I've had mixed emotions on this day since he left and now, it's even harder with John gone.

But, you know, the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle.


Just like the rainbow, it's a promise He'll take care of us forever in every situation.


And then, I have these three little angels to brighten my days and keep me busy.  I pick up Laynee every day after PreK.  It's so strange because she is going to the elementary school my son, and my granddaughters went to.  Third generation at this neighborhood school.  My - how time flies.

Thank you all of my blogging friends for all of your support and prayers the last two years.  I treasure you all dearly!

Judy





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58 comments:

  1. DeniseAugust 30, 2015 at 11:41 PM

    A touching tribute to Your Husband and Grandson.It broke My heart.I'm so sorry. May the Lord God continue to comfort You and bring You closer to Himself every day. Denise

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  2. Leslie HarrisAugust 31, 2015 at 1:33 AM

    Oh Judy. This post made me sad but I pray that today the Lord lightens your heart and your day. Thinking of you and sending you warm thoughts on this special day.
    xo
    Leslie

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  3. Amy at love made my homeAugust 31, 2015 at 2:31 AM

    Thinking of you today Judy and sending all good thoughts and hugs your way. I hope that you enjoy your time today with Laynee. xx

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  4. Ms. AAugust 31, 2015 at 3:11 AM

    Happy Anniversary and good thoughts.

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  5. UnknownAugust 31, 2015 at 5:56 AM

    Judy, You have been such a witness for our loving Savior. May God and the love of others be there for you every day.

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  6. StaceyAugust 31, 2015 at 6:16 AM

    Sending hugs to you sweet Judy.

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  7. RitaAugust 31, 2015 at 6:34 AM

    Judy thank you for reminding us of God's promise. When have we needed the reminder more? That even through deep sorrow He will not forsake us. I am thankful for your reminders and your blog.

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  8. Carol- Beads and BirdsAugust 31, 2015 at 6:38 AM

    You are so lucky and today is certainly a day to celebrate it!! Blessed with a deep love, even if a memory now, and those wonderful Grands!! What a blessing. Have a wonderful day. xx, Carol

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  9. Linda @ A La CarteAugust 31, 2015 at 7:20 AM

    Judy, you are a brave and strong woman. You have endured much but have also been so blessed. Big hugs to you on this difficult day. Focus on the rainbows my friend.

    Linda

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  10. ~Lavender Dreamer~August 31, 2015 at 7:21 AM

    I'm thinking of you today and hope you'll have those good memories to get you through....and your precious family. Sweet hugs, Diane

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  11. BevAugust 31, 2015 at 7:34 AM

    I'm so sorry that you have lost your precious husband and grandbaby. Life can be so painful. I know you're probably tired of hearing this but you were lucky to have the time with them that you did. It is such a blessing to be in a happy marriage. There are so few people who are able to experience that. I'm so proud of you for how you deal with everything you have been thrown in life. It shows that you are a strong, brave, special woman. You have meant the world to me. Your sweet spirit makes you one of a kind. I'm so happy to know you. I'll be thinking of you today and praying for your peace, happiness and health. XOXO

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  12. TheresaAugust 31, 2015 at 8:00 AM

    Sending you a really tight HUG this morning! I hope you enjoy the the happy memories today! God bless you in the days and years ahead!

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  13. LaurieAugust 31, 2015 at 8:18 AM

    Though such a hard time Judy, it's precious you have these special memories and sweet babies to keep you warm. I'm sorry for the loss of your dear John, and I pray God bless you in the coming days.

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  14. Patty MarkerAugust 31, 2015 at 8:26 AM

    I can only imagine how difficult these last months have been and especially today. You are so right God does promise to be our comforter in every situation and I pray you feel his loving arms today and every day until you are reunited with your precious John.

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  15. ClaudiaAugust 31, 2015 at 8:37 AM

    Dearest Judy, I know this day is a difficult one. How I wish I could give you a big hug! You and John had a wonderful life together and it ended too soon. This day is loaded with too many bittersweet memories, of dear Landen and John. Know that you are in the thoughts and prayers of so many of your friends today. Love you.

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  16. PoppyAugust 31, 2015 at 8:52 AM

    Hope you had a peaceful day, Judy, remembering and reminiscing about all the wonderful years you had with your beloved John, and the sweet and precious moments with your adorable Landen. Thinking of you, my friend. Take care.

    xo
    Poppy

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  17. FlowerLady LorraineAugust 31, 2015 at 9:00 AM

    Dear Judy ~ Happy 47th anniversary! Love is Forever. Keep those loving memories locked in your heart and know that one day you two will be reunited to live with our Awesome God, Jesus, forever and ever.

    He bottles all of our tears, they and we are precious to Him.

    Love, hugs and prayers ~ FlowerLady

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  18. Celestina MarieAugust 31, 2015 at 9:24 AM

    Hi Judy, wishing you a happy anniversary and as Lorraine said, your love will last forever. God's blessing will see you through. Peace, love and joy be with you as you hold on to your precious memories.
    Hugs and Blessings, cm

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  19. Arlene GAugust 31, 2015 at 9:28 AM

    Hugs to you today Judy. Enjoy those sweet girlies and your precious memories.

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  20. Cathy @ My 1929 CharmerAugust 31, 2015 at 9:30 AM

    This will be a difficult day for you...since John is gone. The both of you shared this day for 47 years, and now you are celebrating without him. How difficult it must be. Your love was rare and will always be in each others hears...for this kind of love always remains. May God be with you today!

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  21. Penny @ Penny's Vintage HomeAugust 31, 2015 at 9:41 AM

    Thinking of you.....hugs and prayers.....

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  22. Deb~in~DenverAugust 31, 2015 at 10:10 AM

    Judy, I know John would be so proud of how you have survived these past 10 months. I believe he's walking this journey right by your side. I lost my son to leukemia, 7 years ago, the anniversary of his passing has fallen on Father's Day and that was a really tough one. I can't imagine how difficult it's been for you to lose Landen on your anniversary. Love seeing your pictures, you can see the love you and John had for each other and your family. Sending warm, comforting hugs to you.

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  23. bj August 31, 2015 at 10:13 AM

    Dear Judy...I am too emotional right now to write...be back when i get myself together. God Bless...

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  24. MelanieAugust 31, 2015 at 10:30 AM

    Dearest Judy...I will be holding you in my heart and praying for you today as you go through this difficult day. {{hugs}}

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  25. Nancy's NotesAugust 31, 2015 at 10:41 AM

    Dear Judy, am thinking of you on this precious and hard day. Enjoy every memory that your heart is filled up to the top with! Hugs, blessings and prayers are sent your way.
    Nancy
    xo

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  26. Nancy's NotesAugust 31, 2015 at 10:42 AM

    Dear Judy, am thinking of you on this precious and hard day. Enjoy every memory that your heart is filled up to the top with! Hugs, blessings and prayers are sent your way.
    Nancy
    xo

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  27. JeannaAugust 31, 2015 at 11:06 AM

    Praying for your continued peace and comfort dear Judy.

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  28. bj August 31, 2015 at 11:10 AM

    I so admire you strength...and you are so right in that God never gives us more than we can bear. Your faith is what has got you thru these two heartbreaking losses.....how else could we bear these loses without our Heavenly Father and His grace and love for us.
    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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  29. AnonymousAugust 31, 2015 at 11:11 AM

    Oh, Dear Judy, my heart aches for you and you are such an inspiration to us. Bless you sweet friend and may you feels God's loving arms around you, love you.
    Blessings,
    Shelia :)

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  30. camp and cottage livingAugust 31, 2015 at 11:19 AM

    Judy
    You are in my prayers today. With the memories of the loss of both your John and Landen I'm sure it will be a tough day for you. How blessed you were to have had 47 years with your love! Your three little angels are adorable.
    Take care-Kimberly

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  31. Joy@aVintageGreenAugust 31, 2015 at 12:57 PM

    Thinking warm thoughts and prayers today Judy. Hugs and Love.
    Joy

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  32. Vel CristeAugust 31, 2015 at 1:05 PM

    Just a big HUG to you Judy...

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  33. UnknownAugust 31, 2015 at 1:25 PM

    Special thoughts and prayers for you today.

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  34. Sweet Posy DreamsAugust 31, 2015 at 1:31 PM

    My thoughts are with you. Love the wedding photo.

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  35. Mary@mydogsmygardenandmaryAugust 31, 2015 at 1:53 PM

    Oh dear sweet Judy, prayers are sent your way. You have so many wonderful memories with you & John. He is right there beside you helping you along the way.
    Those three darling little girls will help you - they love you so.
    You are so right about God never giving us more than we can take.
    Hugs to you
    Mary

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  36. Debra@CommonGroundAugust 31, 2015 at 2:53 PM

    Thank you for sharing your special day and sweet memories with all of us, Judy. We're all giving you a great big collective HUG!!

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  37. Twinkle TerriorAugust 31, 2015 at 2:56 PM

    hi Judy, you are so inspiring ... even though anniversaries are different than ever, your husband would be proud of how strong and brave you have been. a beautiful family is John's legacy. 3 generations of the same school is amazing. thinking of you ox

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  38. ScribblerAugust 31, 2015 at 3:13 PM

    I am happy you can take comfort in the memories of a good life and a good marriage with a good man. You have a great attitude, and I know you will be at peace.

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  39. The Rusty ThimbleAugust 31, 2015 at 3:20 PM

    happy Anniversary to you and to John up in Heaven, He is celebrating with little Landen
    Big Hugs and prayers for God to give you strength and comfort today
    Brenda

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  40. DewenaAugust 31, 2015 at 3:28 PM

    Judy, my heart goes out to you for your sadness as I read this. It's all just so much of a lesson to treasure our loved ones while we have them and I know you certainly did and still do.

    Dewena

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  41. JunkchiccottageAugust 31, 2015 at 4:26 PM

    Judy this was such a heart warming post today. While it is so difficult for you it was so sweet and comforting to hear you say you find comfort and peace in other blessings in your life. I know you miss John and of course your sweet Landen but I know they are smiling down on your today knowing you will see them again some day. In the meantime you have more things to do here like kissing those sweet faces by the door!!!! Nice post and tribute to John and Landen.
    Kris

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  42. White Lace and PromisesAugust 31, 2015 at 7:12 PM

    Oh Judy, I am so very sorry. This has got to be the hardest. Prayers for you. There are no words that will make it easy unless. On days like this we just need to know someone cares.

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  43. TriciaAugust 31, 2015 at 8:40 PM

    My prayers and kind thoughts are with you today.

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  44. Red Rose AlleyAugust 31, 2015 at 8:41 PM

    Judy, I'm sorry you're feeling this way on your special anniversary day, and I'm so sorry to hear about precious Landen. wow, 47 years, that's amazing. Those little ones are darling, and it's so good that you get to see them often. I really like this picture of your wedding day. It's a black and white treasured picture.

    Thinking of you today and sending my love.

    ~Sheri

    ps Judy, I believe that when we see a rainbow it is a gift. Thank you for this gift today of a rainbow on your blog. :~)

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    1. Red Rose AlleyAugust 31, 2015 at 8:47 PM

      I put you on my side bar as "lovely blog." That rainbow got to me. :~)

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  45. RURAL August 31, 2015 at 8:51 PM

    I can't imagine how hard it must be, and I am so sorry. John was the light of your life, and we could see just how much he meant to you.

    Sending you a gentle hug Judy, I know it's not much, know I am thinking about you.

    Jen

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  46. RURAL August 31, 2015 at 8:51 PM

    I can't imagine how hard it must be, and I am so sorry. John was the light of your life, and we could see just how much he meant to you.

    Sending you a gentle hug Judy, I know it's not much, know I am thinking about you.

    Jen

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  47. cynthia lee designsAugust 31, 2015 at 10:40 PM

    Thinking of you and sending hugs!!
    ~Cindy

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  48. Jemma@athomewithjemmaSeptember 1, 2015 at 11:43 AM

    Dearest Judy,
    Wanting you to know that I have been thinking of you and holding you in my heart and thoughts. I know how difficult this day was for you. Your faith will always comfort you and of course your precious blessing of family.
    Jemma

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  49. Oliva OhlsonSeptember 1, 2015 at 8:17 PM

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful wedding picture!!! I'm thinking of you!!!

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  50. Vickie @ Ranger 911September 1, 2015 at 10:53 PM

    I can see the love the two of you shared, Judy, and my heart goes out to you. I'm sorry you're spending your anniversary without John and that it's the day you lost your precious grandson. I'm glad you have those 3 little sweethearts to brighten your days.

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  51. Curtains in My TreeSeptember 2, 2015 at 11:06 AM

    These are such hard times I know
    There are so many of us ladies with out our husbands
    I know a few very young gals ages 40-50 who are widows also
    my sister is 55 and been a widow 5 years

    Janice

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  52. Ann@A Sentimental LifeSeptember 2, 2015 at 5:17 PM

    Sending you a hug. How blessed to spend all those years together but then it makes you miss your loved one even more. Thanks for sharing with us.

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  53. Have a Daily Cup of Mrs. OlsonSeptember 3, 2015 at 7:05 PM

    Oh my Judy, to lose both your husband and your grandson. Difficult indeed! So glad that you have those other little rays of sunshine! You are a strong woman no doubt!
    hugs,
    Jann

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  54. Susan FreemanSeptember 5, 2015 at 9:54 AM

    My heart goes out to you. Losing the love of your life is so enormously painful there are no adequate words. Just know that you are a very important person to me and I so admire your love of family and friends and our Lord.

    Big Texas Hugs,
    Susan and Bentley

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  55. Carol PirozekSeptember 5, 2015 at 4:58 PM

    Hi Judy~I feel your sadness...I am sending BIG hugs your way today!!! xoxo Carol

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  56. An Oasis in the DesertSeptember 7, 2015 at 7:03 AM

    I'm so sorry I missed this post earlier, Judy. I understand how difficult it must be to keep moving forward, even on those occasions that would have called for celebration. My sweet hubby and I have been married for 46 years, and I cannot imagine my life without him. You're right, God doesn't give us more than we can handle, but sometimes it does feel like our plate is piled a bit high. You seem like a very strong woman, and I think John would be so proud of you. Maybe he left you sooner than you wanted, but maybe that precious grandson needed him more. Sending prayers and hugs.

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  57. Kim September 8, 2015 at 9:25 PM

    Judy, I remember reading this post and I thought for sure I commented, but I was probably reading in the car, on my phone, in the parking lot, waiting for kids. It touched me so and I just wanted to say that I was thinking of you and sending prayers and happy thoughts. Enjoy those sweet smiles...they are precious and lift spirits!

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