Tomorrow - November 5th - my beloved John will have been in Heaven for two years. It is hard to comprehend life without him. That precious smile and those gorgeous brown eyes. I remember his eyes were the first thing I noticed about him when I met him. We met at work and were married six weeks later. But, it is such a blessing to know that he is cancer free and I'm sure having a ball with Landon.
It is just so hard to do day by day things without thinking - how John will have enjoyed this or that on a daily basis. John was one of the most devoted Christians I have ever met in my life. His Lord was so important to him and he lived accordingly. Nothing was gray - it was either right or wrong.
But, I do have to be so thankful for the 46 years we had together. When I think back over all of that time, I realize how blessed I am.
He would have been so involved with the great grandkids - just like he was with the grandkids.
I'm so sorry that the twins will probably not remember much about him except they still talk about their "Poppy" but they were barely a year old when he passed.
Bentley never got to meet "Poppy".
I truly think there are days that Bella misses him so much. She still sleeps on his robe and drags it around the house.
John would have been so very proud of Tiffany and the job she is doing raising these precious little girls. Devoting her whole life to them. But, he always was so proud of Tiff and everything she ever did.
He got to spend alot of time with Laynee and I am so grateful for that. She really misses him too.
So, as you can tell, I'm a little sentimental when I look back and realize that 2 years ago he was here and 2 years ago tomorrow, he wasn't.
Thank you all for all of your support during his illness and afterwards. You will never know what it has meant to me.
I will take him a dozen yellow roses tomorrow and tell him again how much I miss him.
"Grief never ends...but it changes. It is a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith...it is the price of
God is good!