Saturday, January 13, 2018

Sweet Memories


Today's post is some of my precious memories of my sweet Bella.

To start out, Bella was a rescue dog, however, sometimes I think she rescued us rather than the other  way around.


She was a constant companion for 11 years and an even more companion since John passed away 3 1/2 years ago.  She was constantly by my side. 


And yes, she slept  right beside me every night.

She had her own pillow and most generally slept on John's old brown chenille robe.

When she wasn't in bed, she napped on the red and white loveseat in my bedroom or on the loveseat in my office where she could look out and watch the birds and squirrels in the back yard.


She was known by her perfect round black circle on her rear end.


She was so gentle and kind around the little girls.  When one of them was sick, she stayed right there beside them.

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They were always good  at sharing their snacks with her.

This is by far one of my favorite set of photos...

Just watch and  wait....





She  finally won Laynee over to share her ice cream.

She was always supervising each and every project.  The move into the new house didn't phase her.





And holidays...don't think she liked them as much as I did but she always cooperated.


















These are just favorite shots...






She loved to ride in the truck.











Just to share her last week with you...

She had a swelling come up under her chin.  Turned out it was a horrible bacterial infection.  We don't have any idea where it came from.

They tried to biopsy it but it was so swollen that they put her on steroids to help the swelling go down.  Everything went downhill so fast.  We were at the vets and/or emergency vets every day that week.  Finally, on Friday, they said they didn't know what else to do and sent us the a veterinary hospital.  They did a few tests and determined the infection had started invading her organs plus she had a tumor that was cancer.  It was causing her to have trouble breathing.  The vet was so kind.  He told me we could do thousands of dollars on test but it was inhumane to do that to her because the cancer was inoperable and she would have no quality of life. Plus,he said she was in a lot of pain,

I stayed and held her until the very end.  I just miss her so much.  I will not be getting another dog.  I can't go thru that again.

I miss her feet on the wood floor coming down the hall.  She was always there the minute the fridge door opened and was so much company.  She was so protective and loving.

Thank you for all of the sweet comments.  It will take a long time to get over this, if I ever do.


I know she and John are having a great time together up in Heaven.  I'm sure they were both so excited to see each other.


Thank you blogging friends for loving her too.

Judy





















33 comments:

  1. Oh Judy, thank you for sharing your feelings and photo memories of your wonderful Bella. She was so loved and had a big heart to love everyone. She certainly let you know that costumes were tolerated for a few minutes only (Santa Bella is my favorite expression of patience and cooperation). Hugs and Love.
    Joy

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear of Bella's passing, Judy. It's heartbreaking when we lose one of our fur babies. Like you said, it's going to take a long time to get over her lost. You have so many wonderful memories of her! Cherish them all! Blessings to you!

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  3. Judy, I enjoyed the pictures of Bella. Santa was my favorite. Take care of yourself.

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  4. Judy, I'm so very sorry that you lost your precious fur baby Bella. What a wonderful sweet baby. God Bless You.

    hugs,
    Sissie

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  5. She was so good with your grandchildren. She was a such a sweet, patient dog. She was cute in her holiday costumes, the expression she has on her face while wearing them is funny, like she was wondering if she was going to have to wear the costume even after the pics were taken.

    I was sorry to read that Bella had passed away.

    Take care.

    Susie D.

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  6. Aw...Judy. I am bawling like a baby. I know exactly what you are feeling because I have been down that same path. My last was our Misty and I lost her almost 6 years ago and still miss her. I couldn't bring myself to get another pet...I know people say you should get another pet right away (or soon) but I still can't bring myself to do it. My heart aches for you, Judy. xo Diana

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  7. Oh, Judy...this makes my heart hurt so bad. Your constant companion and how she was so good to your great-grandchildren...they're going to miss her like crazy, too. I love that perfect circle on her back end. That was the cutest thing. I am so sorry you have lost your beloved companion. My heart goes out to you. {{hugs}}

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  8. oh Judy, I am crying after reading and seeing Bella's pictures. It's so sad to lose a fur baby. Both of mine are rescued also. I can't get over how Bella and Lili look alike. Lili has the same temperament as Bella.

    Lili does exactly the same as Bella did. You have so many memories of that sweet wonderful dog. She is with John now and giving him some love.

    Take care of yourself.
    Hugs,
    Mary

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  9. I totally understand the never having another fur baby, after we had two with the exact same tumors be put down one year and two days apart Jack on Dec. 26 2015 and Cody on Dec. 28 2016 we decided that our hearts had had enough breaking. It will never be the same without them, but life still goes on.
    Big Hugs, Sandy in Montana

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  10. Oh my. I am so very sorry to read that you lost your pretty girl, Bella.
    I lost my Chelsea girl 3 years ago. She was 17+. I am still not over it but I did eventually get another puppy which I love dearly. They are the best company.
    Take all the time you need. I know you are missing a big piece of your heart.
    I am so very sorry.
    Monica

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  11. What a good friend she was for you. I'm sorry for your loss. I have a 14 year old dog that is aging quickly now and I just know it's going to break my heart when we lose him. ((hugs)), Teresa :-(

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  12. Judy
    How I feel your love for Bella and your loss. I know how empty the days can feel. The sounds she made tapping the floor when she walked will be forever etched in your memory. The love she gave. I hope it relieves your pain to know Bella is with John and how delighted he will be to see her running toward him. I pray the little girls will fill your days with the extra love you need. Hugs

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  13. I know John was waiting for her with open arms. Thank you for sharing your memories with us Judy.

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  14. Judy, It is so hard to lose a loved pet. I lost my Boo at the beginning of December. It about broke my heart. A few months before I got Boo from the shelter I had lost 2 kitties that I had raised since they were 2 days old. Their had died. When they crossed the Rainbow Bridge I said I would never get another cat. It was too hard, too painful. Months later I needed the loving kindness of another kitty. I needed her playfulness, her warmth when I slept, and most of all her companionship. Now, when I lost her after 5 years I again said never again. However, .... Give your heart time Judy. Time to grieve, time to heal. For everything there is a season.

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  15. Oh Judy I really loved seeing all the sweet memories of Bella with your pictures. I love the picture of Laynee and Bella on the grass laying the same way with the same expression on their faces. Just adorable. My heart is breaking for you. I have been where you are now and I know how painful this is. It takes your breath away many times with how painful this loss is. I know you say you do not want another dog but my advice is grieve as long as you need too and then reconsider. I thought the way you are after losing Cooper. I thought I would never find another rescue that filled our hearts like he did. Well God put me in the path of another one and now Peggy is filling that void and hole in our hearts. I still miss Cooper. He will always be my most special dog. The way he came to us and the way his life worked out will always make him so special in our hearts but Peggy is giving us a chance to give love to another beautiful rescue dog and she gives us such hope and love. So give your heart and grief time and you just never know. God may put you in the path of another sweet angel to love. Hugs dear friend.
    xoxo
    Kris

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  16. She was such a special dog I know you miss her so much. I still miss my Charlie 2 yrs later and like you I don't think I will ever get over it. I have gotten another cat and I'm glad I did but everyone has to do what is right for them. We lost my Mom's 17 yr old cat on Friday and she said she would not get another one either. Just enjoy the memories and know we love and support you in your grief.

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  17. hello.I have found your blog via Mereknits.Like so many others who have gone through this experience,there are no words.Tears are in my eyes as I look at the many wonderful photos of your Beloved girl,you can see just how loved she truly was and what a wonderful life she was so lucky to have with you.Sending Huge Comforting Hugs xxxx

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  18. Loved this memory collection. I know you miss Bella very much and will keep her memory alive for the rest of your days. Sending a big hug and continued prayers your way.

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  19. Judy, What a wonderful photo and word tribute to Bella. I cried through the whole post. What a good sport she was. That just showed how much she loved and trusted you and knew how much you loved her as well. I am so sorry you lost such a good friend and companion. Sweet hugs to you and your family who will also miss her so much. Sandra

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  20. I truly sympathize, Judy. Only a dog owner/lover could understand that kind of bond, and the heartbreak when it comes to an end. It's sad, isn't it, that their life spans are so short compared to ours. They devote themselves to us completely, adapting themselves to our lives in a way we could never do because we can't know what they're thinking. No person could ever do that. You and John gave her a beautiful life. I think after some time passes you'll find room in your heart for another rescue. They surely do fill up the lonely times in our lives. God bless you dear Judy - hold onto that beautiful thought that your loved ones are together!

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  21. I am so sorry for your loss. Those words seem so inadequate. Bella was beautiful and I can tell she was a very very special girl. I know that it takes time, but I hope eventually only the good memories of her remain and not the feelings of overwhelming loss that you have right now. I am so glad that Bella found her way into your home, family, and heart.

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  22. So sorry for your loss, Judy. Keeping good thoughts for you.
    Peggy D

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  23. Oh I know how painful this is, believe me. I like to never have got over my little Sissy passing almost same way Bella did and Sissy was a rescue dog also.
    I am after 6 years wanting another dog , you will also maybe, the rescue dogs need us Judy.
    I'm sorry anyone has to go through this pain of losing a dog or any precious pet.
    I have a cat now I rescued

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  24. This breaks my heart for you--and for me--our golden retriever has just received the same diagnosis. They are our furry little angels on earth. Love and devotion like nothing else. Thinking of you.

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  25. Judy, am crying reading your post and looking at your precious photos of Bella. We lost our two corgi boys within 10 months of each other to terrible medical issues.
    There's not a day goes by I still think of them after almost three years. But aren't
    we so fortunate to have had them in our lives? They give so much and only ask for love
    and kibble in return. Peace.

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  26. What a precious, precious girl she was. I'm so sorry she's gone but glad you did not let her suffer. It is so painful to let them go but it's the loving thing to do. My Princess has been gone for four years and I still miss her so very, very much. I can only hope she is running happily with your girl and other friends. I'm glad you adopted Bella and that you knew how much love a dog can give.

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  27. Judy, I am so sorry for your loss. What wonderful photos you have to remember her.

    xo Dianne

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  28. I cried as I read the post...what a sweet and precious girl she was. They are so much a part of our family for such a short time. They give us unconditional love. They are so hard to lose and it took a long time to get over losing Bo. But I'm so happy we have Ginger because their are so many dogs out there that needs homes and love. Take your time, losing the ones we love is never easy. But I can see Bella and John keeping each other company now..

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  29. What a dear sweet dog, and I like her pretty black and white markings and that black circle is incredible. I rescued a dog a year ago and he makes me smile every day and sleeps on my bed like Bella slept on yours. I send you hugs for your loss.

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  30. I am so sorry for your loss. I know that each pet we have becomes our child and there is no replacing them. Maybe one day you will find another friend to share your life with, or not. I had to put our dog to sleep a few years ago and my husband got another...one I have slowly grown to love even though I swore I would never have another. Blessings and hugs to you.

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  31. Dear Judy, I read this heartbreaking post the day after we got back from driving to pick up our new dachshunds the day after you posted it. I was just devastated for you and the pictures of your darling girl and your loving words about her took me back to October and November when we lost our dear Otis and Milo. I knew your heartbreak, knew the loss you were feeling, knew what the days ahead would be like for you, knew it would be even worse for you because John was not there by you to cry with you. I wanted so much to write you then but I was so sick for three weeks and had our two new ones to care for. But you were in my thoughts and prayers daily. I won't ask if you're doing better now because I know the empty hole in my heart when I think about my boys or look out my kitchen window to their little graves, even though God brought Bree and Mason to me to love and care for.

    I always loved that beautiful black circle on your Bella's back, loved her beautiful black and white markings and those soulful eyes. But seeing all these photos of her, so telling of the day by day life she shared with you from morning to bedtime, from season to season, with your dear grandchildren, well it reminds me how very hard such a loss is.

    Also Judy, another reason that Bella's death affected me so much is that back in 1999 we lost our corgi Dallas to what sounds like the very same thing Bella had. Only our vet was stumped. He thought perhaps Dallas had been bitten by a snake under her neck. Through 2 weeks of trips to him and then to a specialist, with many medicine changes, no one could really diagnose what was wrong. She died in my arms in the middle of the night before we planned to take her to UT veterinary school in east TN. So many times since then I wished we had taken her immediately. I wouldn't let the vet do an autopsy, I just wanted to keep her and bury her at home so we'll never know for sure what it was.

    Judy, I haven't posted in over a month and today finally sat down to write about our new babies but I knew I had to write you, just in case you happened to see it when I do, because I wanted you to know how much I hurt for you ever since I read about Bella. She was a beautiful girl and I'm sure when you look at her photos even now that you tell her she was the heart of your heart, as I still tell Otis and Milo every night when I go to bed and look at their pictures in my room.

    God bless you,
    Dewena

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  32. Judy, I had missed this post about Bella...so I went back thru your posts . I am so very sorry about your sweet pet. I know you loved her and had her a long time...but it's never long enough with our loved ones or pets that are among our loved ones. Bless you heart Judy...sending you hugs. Stay strong. xoxo, Susie

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