Six months ago today, I lost my precious John. Even tho, I know he is healthy, well and with those he loves and his dear Savior, I cannot help but grieve.
If you remember, on birthdays and anniversaries, he always gave me yellow roses.
We had yellow roses in our wedding. So, they are so very special to me.
Some of you suggested and I took it to heart, to plant a yellow rose bush so I would always have yellow roses to remind me of John.
So, I got the rose bush and awaiting to put it in the ground.
I wanted to share this photo with you. I was cleaning out my closet and sorting a bunch of clothes the other day when Laynee was here.
All of a sudden, I looked over and she had the book with the folder from John's funeral in her hand and was telling him all about what was going on "down here" as she said. Since then, anytime something happens - sometimes exciting, sometimes not so exciting - she runs and gets that book and just talks to him like he was sitting here beside her.
I have so many memories past and present to be thankful for and I truly am. I just miss him terrible.
Judy
What a sweet post Judy. I know that yellow rose bush will bring peace to your heart.
ReplyDeleteOh Judy tears streaming down my face with Laynee talking to grandpa about what is going on. How precious is this.
ReplyDeleteThe yellow roses planted will be a wonderful reminder of all the wonderful years together and all the great celebrations including yellow roses you shared. I know you miss him so.
Kris
This post is really intimate. Thank you so much, Judy, for sharing it with us. Those flowers and your words are beautiful.
ReplyDeleteMay God and time help you go through this process.
Arlette
Lanee is a wise little one. Hugs Judy.
ReplyDeleteJoy
I know you miss him. Can't even imagine. Sending you hugs. ♥
ReplyDeleteOf course you miss John terribly...every single day. But it seems those milestone dates especially hit hard, don't they? Precious Laynee with talking to John...so bittersweet. Love, hugs, and prayers to you, dear Judy.
ReplyDeleteJudy what a lovely post you have shared with us. So nice to have the yellow rose bush. And such a sweet thing that Laynee speaks and tells John what's happening. 6 Months is not very long, you will of course miss him. Sending hugs to you and thinking about you. Take care.
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Judy, I know you will always miss John. The beautiful Yellow Roses and sweet Laynee sharing your lives with John are so sweet.
ReplyDeleteJudy,
ReplyDeleteGrandchildren such precious gifts to brighten our days and hearts. Thinking of you today.
Jemma
Oh my, my heart does ache for you. But I think planting the yellow rose bush is a wonderful idea!
ReplyDeleteAwww, bless your heart! I think you are amazing and I'm so happy that you got to share your life with someone who appreciated you. I know it's difficult. Call me any time. XO
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for what you are going through, Judy...it is so hard. It will be a year tomorrow that my father passed away...it's been a rough week for my mom. Like you say...you just miss them...xoxo
ReplyDeleteOh, that adorable Laynee. She, as children do, gets it. She simply talks to John as if he is there - and he is. Many hugs from me to you on this six month anniversary, Judy. May you be showered with yellow roses, now and in the future.
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Claudia
I don't have the right words, but oh gosh so glad that you will always have yellow roses and will always have the memories. Hugs to you. xx
ReplyDeleteOh my, how sweet that sound must be of Laynee talking to John. :'(
ReplyDeleteAhh, that is so sweet. It sounds like she understands. Sending you (Hugs). It has to be hard.
ReplyDeleteNo words, just sending a big ((hug))!
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely idea to plant that yellow rose Judy, it will trigger the beautiful memories of him every time you look at it.
ReplyDeleteJen
Dear Judy....I am so sorry. So sad for you. I can only imagine the pain one feels to lose a spouse. I am happy for the yellow roses idea, though. They will be so gorgeous. One day you will hug him again and you will never part again. Susan
ReplyDeleteI am speechless, except to say God is truly working in your life . My heart goes out to you. The pain you feel for a lost love one is indescribable. But you will get through this. You are a remarkable lady. We out here love and care about you. Don't ever forget that.
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful idea to grow yellow roses. My heart hurts for you on this 6 months anniversary. So precious is Laynee talking to her grandpa. Send lots of hugs your way.
ReplyDeleteCindy
Judy, I can tell you widow to widow, you will Always miss him terribly! Yet, just like your granddaughter, we know that through our relationship with Jesus, our hubby's are here with us and we can talk with them and feel their presence. It does my heart good to see that beautiful photo of your Laynee!! Blessings and Prayers heading your way, Cindy xoxo
ReplyDeleteJudy, if I had had a wonderful husband like yours I would ache all over at times missing him. I cannot imagine losing such a love on this earth. Like someone said you can talk with him. The bond you had was strong. So sweet granddaughter talking with him....just precious. Many hugs and prayers for less pain in the days ahead.
ReplyDeleteYou are in my thoughts, Judy.
ReplyDeleteAmalia
xo
I love this sweet post! The yellow roses are a wonderful remembrance and Laynee...what can I say, so precious.
ReplyDeleteOh Judy I'm so sorry that you're going through all of this difficult grief! I know that you had such a long and wonderful life together. I can't imagine how it feels to live with this void. I love the idea of planting the yellow rose bush! You can clip some off and bring them inside and hopefully that will make you feel better. yellow roses are so pretty! That's sweet that your granddaughter speaks to your husband like that. It's obvious she misses him terribly too. I hope with time that your grief will lessen and you'll be able to replace the hurt with happy memories instead. Loss of a loved one is the hardest thing to deal with!
ReplyDeleteOh dear friend, I know you miss him terribly! What a sweet yellow rose bush to remind you of your love for each other, always and forever! That is the sweetest picture of Laynee having a precious conversation:) God knows how we miss those we have lost but will never be forgotten! Sending HUGS and PRAYERS your way!
ReplyDeleteWhat a sweet pic of your granddaughter talking to John....as only a grandchild can. Your rose bush will thrive, of that I'm sure. Blessings. ;)
ReplyDeleteJudy, how sweet of little Laynee. John hears and sees all. I firmly and truly believe that. The rose bush is a beautiful tribute. Hugs to you. xo
ReplyDeleteThat is so very precious of her, just talking to her grandfather about her days, missing him but knowing that just continuing their last conversation together helps. The faith of a child…
ReplyDeleteI hope many thoughts come to comfort you in this hurting time.
what a wonderful way for your grand children to keep his memory alive for you all, I do hope it continues, it's so good to talk about those who aren't with us anymore (and to talk to them if we want to) so good for those left behind. I hope your new rose bush flowers abundantly. Betty
ReplyDeleteThis really tugged at my heart strings Judy. To hear your grandchildren talk to your John must feel as though he is still very much with you, and to be surrounded by your yellow roses even more so. Keep strong and smile through the memories. xx
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry, Judy. I am sure that every single day is hard, but I know that anniversaries and holidays are the toughest. I hope rose bush brings you some solace and your sweet granddaughter must, I know.
ReplyDeleteJudy. Sending prayers and hugs. I am so sorry as it must be so very hard for you. My dad passed a little over a month ago and I miss him so much it hurts. Yellow roses were also his favorite and I think I will plant a yellow rose bush in my yard. I know I have not lost my husband so I can't say how bad it would be but knowing how hard it is losing my dad, it scares me. Thankfully you know he is with our Lord and so is my Dad. So that is some consolation. How sweet of your granddaughter.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Dianne
Grief is a journey and I see no reason to not have the journey dotted with yellow roses. John would be pleased I'm sure.
ReplyDeleteYellow roses equal LOVE...and I love that you have the bush ready to plant...John's Rose.
ReplyDeleteI can't even come close to imagining how it is to lose someone you love so much. I dread it like the plague....I dread it for me, if Mr. S goes first...I dread it for him if I pass first. Makes me cry.
When my mama died, it was so hard...one of the things that helped me was to write to her in a little journal. Over the years, I told her about ea grandchild of ours that was born...I told her of my brother getting sick...I told her about different things going on in my life. When I wanted to make a quilt, and didn't know how to sew at all, I just asked her to help me along and show me how to do it....silly, I know...but we all have our ways of coping. :)
hugs to you, dear one.
I totally understand how you feel, Judy.. It will be 23 years, tomorrow, May 8, 1992 at 5:30 p.m. on a Friday, that I lost my best friend, soul mate and father of my two children.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you bought the yellow rose bush in remembrance of your John.. I have two gardens in my yard that are especially for my Mom and John. My Dad was a vegetable gardener and I don't grow vegetables so he lives on in my heart instead of having a special garden for him...............as do my Mom and John.
Your little Laynee is such a blessing for you.
Enjoy your summer, stay safe and know that I'm thinking about you.
The best present you could ever have is your granddaughter talking to her Grandpa, it shows how much he is loved and missed.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Meredith
Such a touching post, dear Judy. Your yellow roses are beautiful and Laynee talking to her grandpa is so very sweet. Seeing you love and a big hug.
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